i see you falling, And i want to help you, But you need to be willing to change yourself

why in the world would a person be genuinely smart, but do badly on tests? how can you have so much information stored in your head, information to be found on the test, yet they can't pull higher than a 55 percent?

do you crack under pressure?

do you only talk about the things that you know so knowingly, and not about anything else because that would make you seem dumb?

i want to know how you can be so smart, but you choose to do such dumb things and then act like you dont care about your grades as a result.

you see your aspirations being crushed, shot down, getting farther out of reach; so far that you may have to change what you are going for because what you really want to do, what you really love to do will no longer be attainable.

why do this to yourself?


maybe this is my greatest fault...
seeing the faults of others and wanting to help them change, not being able to bear what they are doing to themselves. i cant seem to get over that and go for people who dont need to be fixed...i need to focus on finding someone who has goals and can go after them-- not perfect, not without fault or change needed but someone who has aspirations and sticks to what they want, and who doesnt just give up a goal because they want to do dumb things instead and just brush the important stuff aside.


BALANCE.