i was supposed to be born today, and oftentimes i wonder back to when my mom was still pregnant on her due date...what was she thinking or feeling? (get this darn thing out of me! it's been nine months already and now i have to wait longer!)i also like to think about how my life would be different had i been born today.
i would not be known as the firecracker with hair to match the colors of the date (july 4). i would not get comments about fireworks being for me that day, and all across the nation that i am some princess who the day celebrates for.
but all in all, i would just not feel at home celebrating my birthday today. i mean, i'm not even ready to have it yet, there is not a cake, my room is not clean, America is not alive and buzzing with the independence day buzz, i have not yet been to mass (which was over an hour ago), i don't have anything red and blue to wear (well just blue i like to count my hair as the red part seeing as a red shirt would clash with it), and to top it all off, i am just not ready to say that i am 18 yet!
it's kind of a scary thought, yes i get to buy cigarettes, porn and lottery tickets, i get to stay out past 11 and drive, i get to do anything i want around the house, i don't have to visit my dad anymore, i am a legal adult! but really i like just being a kid...it's nice to look forward to my birthday and say YEAH, i am going to be 18, but actually being there makes me think a bit.
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