why is it we always seem to do exactly the opposite of what we say?

• "I don't mean to offend you"........I am going to offend you now
  
• "I don't mean to be rude"........I am going to be rude, but I want to feel okay about it
  
• "I don't mean..."........

how about we stop prefacing these things we are saying and we just say them. prefacing doesn't ease the hurt we are about to experience

but somehow if we don't preface we are jerks...am I supposed to acknowledge the pain I am about to inflict before every thing I do or say?

youre not a chase, youre already captured

is it possible to feel hot and cold without feeling pain?

Jn 14:1-6

i believe that everything happens for a reason.
we may not know what that reason is at the moment,
but in the end,
everything works out.

i should not have to apologize

i cannot change the way i am
i cannot be who you want me to be
i cannot help that i feel this way

i am the way i am
i am who i am
i will feel unexplicable ways


i know that you may think i am not worth it because of this
i know that you may think i am taking too long
i know that you may have more experience than me
but so does everyone else on this planet
i cannot apologize for that.

"Sometimes I lay under the moon and thank god I'm breathing. Then I pray don't take me soon, cause I am here for a reason. Sometimes in my tears I drown, but I never let it get me down. So when negativity surrounds, I know some day it'll all turn around."

-anonymous

if God knows everything, and He knows how everything is going to work out in the end....He must know who we are supposed to be with. that person however may not wind up with us because of our free will as human beings. but He does know who we will wind up with; who we will choose even if He did not create that particular person for us.
so then, if He places someone in your life several times, are you supposed to pay attention to that? does that mean that that is the person you are supposed to be with? i think so. and if you don't pay attention to that i guess you wind up with someone else. this is very upsetting to me. what if God places them there, but you just don't see that repetition? what if?
how are we supposed to change this? i don't think that we can...i wish that we could see it happening, but i don't think that we can.

"It takes more courage to examine the dark corners of your own soul than it does for a soldier to fight on a battlefield"

wb yeats

in light of all thats happening in the catholic church

the media finds them an easy target. they are the only religious group that has such a scrutinized leader. they say he is defined as a political leader, since when do religion and politics mix. yeah, thats what i thought. they say that these men are absolutely revolting. what about all those men who go under the radar? are they not horrible? yes, they are. just because the catholic church has a system of preists who are governed by archbishops in diocese, and who are goverened by the pope, these men are so greatly punished. yes, they are priests, but before any of that, they are men. they are human beings. we cannot punish them for their sins anymore than we can punish every other molester walking on the streets. men have sins, the human race has sins. how would you like to be put under the microscope? yeah, you wouldnt like to be monitored every move you make i hear you say? i didnt think so. they deserve the same treatment as any other man, regardless of their status as a priest. men are men, they sin, they face the consequences, they get forgiven, they move on. period.

get over it, people think that we cannot survive the information age. i think thats what they want...

ringing

why is it that we must be programmed, and then reprogrammed all our lives? is one way not sufficient? with the current dynamics i guess not. we must constantly change to fit the ever-changing mold of expectations. is there ever a time when just being us will be ok? when does that time come?

have you ever payed attention to what people do when you step onto the elevator?

i like that he took chances because it meant that he was still scared, innocent.

i know what its like to feel the need to hurt yourself. i felt the rfrenzy three times today alone. its not scary, its not like "i want to hurt myself so im going to try" its more like you get this frenzy that won't stop itself. you cant even feel pain, its like nothing else i've ever experienced. its a release that we look for, therefore pain is not involved. its the rush knowing that you are going to see an end result, something you know you can control...

i see you standing there.

i walk blindly through the world, and if i pass you by without acknowledgment don't take it personally.
i feel as though my eyes are merely there to show me the destination, anything between the previous and the next in line blurs by.
i see things, but i cannot respond. my eyes do not truly allow me to see. it's like a taunting.

ΑΔ ΓΣΣ ♥

"
'You gave me hyacinths first a year ago;
'They called me the hyacinth girl.'
--Yet when we came back, late, from the Hyacinth garden,
Your arms full, and your hair wet, I could not
Speak, and my eyes failed, I was neither
Living nor dead, and I knew nothing,
Looking into the heart of light, the silence.
Od' und leer das Meer.
"

thinking today

did you think that by talking to other people in that way it would make you seem like a more attractive person? i noticed today that you have stopped doing that, and as i think more about it, you stopped doing that pretty quickly after i stopped acknowledging you. do i have that great an impact? am i supposed to be jealous of you giving more than the time of day to other people? does it not matter anymore once i stop giving you the time of day? i just don't understand that thought process.

"this is the way the world ends, not with a bang, but a whimper"


are you ready?

who knew?

mn
pn
kn
and n


all make the same sound at the beginning of different words. our language...