i want to wear white.
i want to hold orange lilies and black orchids.
i want white tulips to be thrown.
i want orange toes and clear fingers.
i want a thin white headband with a big white flower.
i want to wear cute white flats or slippers so that my feet won't hurt for
eternity.
i want a little bit of makeup and reddish coral lipstick.
i want it to be a celebration of my life, not a mourning of my death.
i want my plaque to be bronze.
i want it to read "I Love You." so that every time someone visits me, they
will know of at least one person out there who does.
i want to be there when people find out.
i want to be able to hold their faces and wipe away tears and hug them
close to me.

this is what i want.