offended.

i'm sorry, but to hear that come out was just like-- i am not sure if i know who you are. we have been stepping on eachothers' toes a lot more lately. and then to hear that you don't like me this morning? so you can just choose which days you like me. we are friends, we work through this stuff, i understand i may not be your favorite person at times, or at any time-- but i allow you certain courtesies that i think i should be allowed as well.

i always used to interrupt you...not because i didn't want to hear what you had to say, but because i was trying to make sure that i had straight in my head what you were trying to tell me, or because i had a good question or point to bring up that when you keep talking i knew i would forget.

sometimes i feel like you keep talking, and i allow you to just do that, because you want to dominate the conversation because you want to be right. of course you do, who doesn't? even i do that, but i feel like that's been happening a lot more lately and i am sick of being cut off. just waiting for you to finish your point, and finding that i have forgotten mine.

you don't do it on purpose i know, but maybe i do have a valid point that i would like to bring up. and i guess because you feel as though i interrupted you for so long maybe now how you deal with it is you just tell me to be quiet so that you can talk-- and i just let you walk all over that.

i'm not mad...i just think that if we keep doing this we may not stay together. maybe we are diverging and maybe not. regardless if this makes us stronger then so be it, if it weakens us-- i am sorry. but for what? the fact that i could not "agree to disagree" anymore. there are some things that are just too important to be left that way.

before i saw growth, now i just see retaliation.
maybe it's the way that i say things because any other person of the same background might understand light heartedly but you take it literal because you have not grown up in the same tradition. maybe you are questioning because it sounds absolutely ridiculous or "stupid" but to me, that is sort of ignorant. you are not an ignorant person. you are smart, and i don't see you any other way, so i want you to acknowledge the things that i do with the same reverence that i have for your practices.

maybe sometimes i do say that stuff is ridiculous, and maybe you do get offended when i say things like that. i am sorry for those times. maybe i am being a complete hypocrite right now, but i want you to know that i am sorry.






and one last thing, "i'm sorry" creates a weakness, not forgiveness with me. don't overuse it--